Not sure if Dream and Design is the best sub forum, but seems to make the most sense.
I have had a number of layouts over my 39 years. Though due to moving across the country and then across the west coast multiple times and job loss and well, reality, I've not had the space I need to build the layout that exists in my head.
And that is fine. That has not stopped me from building layouts. But I always try to make things track back to the Larger vision. My vision, since I was old enough to really internalize some of the finer points of these things was a Proto-Freelance concept. After a number of years of recording thoughts into Word, this has been distilled into a What if Scenario that is:
Suppose that no Rock Island Track/RoW was removed or built over.
Suppose that when UP bid to purchase the SP/DRGW, another company put in a competitive bid that had an effect similar to the breakup of Conrail. So UP had to give up a lot of track.
The resulting Railroad is a Rock Island/DRGW/WP Transcon with assorted other cast offs in California and Oregon and elsewhere.
That vision has stuck with me for over a decade now. And I have no delusions. My layout, whether a small one I can build in an Apartment, or the larger one that exists only in my head would depict only a small section of that railroad and this is really all just backstory for why certain trains with certain paint schemes and certain power are being run.
And that's fine. Frankly, I get a kick out of just "roleplaying" out that backstory.
Here's the problem. I have no interest in actually depicting any of the prototype locations on any of those lines. I mean, DRGW and WP have some pretty Iconic locations. But, that's just not my thing. Right now, I'm working on a small 4x8 with yard extension that is as much for my Toddler to watch Thomas and the Hogworts express go round as it is for me. I'm setting it in the Coast range of Oregon, a Mythical branch along the lines of the Toledo Branch or Tilamook, but not literally any location. It doesn't match with any of the route lines I've chosen. In fact, while I like Ca and Or locations. And I like Colorado Scenery, I have no interest in any locations on the Rock despite growing up in Chicago. There are a few locations I would love to replicate around where I grew up, but they aren't on the RI route and I have no interest in anything beyond those specific scenes.
Another example, The Model Railroad club I belong to had tons and tons of donated Nscale supplies. I had a free HCD. So I'm going to throw together something. I decided rather than build another West Coast layout, I'd try my hand at a part of the Midwest that I do love Scenically. North Eastern Wisconsin. If I really wanted to create a logical proto-Freelance design, this layout would be a mythical branch of the Green Bay and Western up into Door County. But, I still wanted to tie it back to "the vision" Which requires certain hoops to be jumped through. Why would such a line be part of this larger system instead of part of the CN? or another short line conglomeration? Why even make it modern?
Anyway, this is almost more of a blog post, because I don't have a question beyond: DO other people have this kind of "lack of focus?"
I don't know that it's a problem. I've never been paralyzed by it. I just feel like maybe I should give up on the logic of the protolance aspect. Why even bother with the place making if I'm not going to follow through?